I still can't believe Mimi passed away a week ago. Where did time go? I'm scared that the times and experiences I've had with her will become distant memories. Then again what human experience does not become a distant memory? We mourned all of last week and attended her funeral last weekend. Some of us are still mourning but its not as obvious. It is slowly fading. We are returning to our normal schedules and daily routines. For people that have not been as close to Mimi as some of my friends were, they have a easier time adjusting back to what they were doing before. But for those of us who were touched and deeply affect by who Mimi was as a person, our perspectives on life have been altered forever. But even so we begin to move on. As blunt as brutal as it sounds. As much as I don't like stating the truth. This might sound idiotic, but tomorrow, I will get a tattoo in her honor. It will be a piano with the words "RIP Dear Friend" on it. It will be drawn on my left forearm. My parents would probably flip, but eventually think nothing of it. It is against my religion to get anything tattoos as Leviticus 19: 28 states "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD." But Im sure God already knew I was going to get one. HE probably will forgive me for this one.
Being scared of forgetting the memories of a deceased friend is very real. We have pictures, videos, texts, chats, presents, and the likes to remind us they were once on this earth. But they are no longer with us today. We can no longer convey our feelings towards her. For us religious folks she is probably an Angel in heaven and probably can hear and feel our every thought. Everyone treats their memories in different ways. Getting a tattoo is just my way of never forgetting her life. I went into the parlor very wishy-washy, indecisive and the artists their said you need to know exactly what you want. This stood out to me because this has been my very problem in life. I am not decisive and have suffered a lot because of it . But it took me no longer than 15 minutes for the idea this time. Its not that I didn't give this a serious thought. I was going to carry a mark on my body forever. This had to be something simple yet symbolic. Something that carries a deep meaning to me. I was convicted this time. It will be a Piano.
As many of us knew, Mimi was avery talented piano player. Her skills took her to many places, she met many people. Her music touched many souls. But above her piano skills showed her dedication. All of her videos. The sounds the Piano made when she played. She commanded the keys with confidence and authority. The beautiful and fluid sounds the piano made when she played. As corny as it sounds it was like "Picasso on the canvas". Her life taught me many things. Things like be decisive. Be dedicated to what you do and be passionate. Be genuine and sincere. Live life to the fullest. Love, laugh, cry. Be strong and caring. Its okay to go party and drink at times. But get your work done. Study hard and play hard as times require.
A role model right in front of my eyes. All these things I was blind to. But now that she's gone, I've realized how much I could have learned from her while she was alive. I want her to know just how much of an impact she's made on my life and the life of others. I miss her very much. And Im sure you guys too. We'll see you on the other side one day, I'll promise you that.
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