Summer Time Blues

The long awaited Summer is finally here. You have been hard at work for the past 2 semesters, or 4 quarters. You finally get to go back home and not have to worry about school work and the stress that comes with it. You can finally sleep in all day and relax. The nice weather, the warm wind blowing, when the heat of the sun just seems to warm everything up. The smell of the summer time air and the sounds of summer time bustle and hustle. What a great time of year.

Summer is also the time of opportunity. Some people go on vacations with their families. Some take the opportunity to study abroad  and travel. Others apply for internships or summer jobs or volunteer for something so the experience will look good on on a resume and maybe even earn a little cash on the side. For those people, things are looking pretty bright.

On the other hand, for those whose opportunities don't seem so plentiful,  they are the ones who bum around the entire summer. No directions. No plans. No money. You just sit home all day, in front of the computer or TV. Playing video games, being bored. Wondering what is there to do? I've been there, done that. Your parents threaten to kick you out of the house. If you have just turned 20 or are still in your twenties, your parents have every right to do so. In this society, if you don't work, you don't eat. You can't afford the things you want. You can't go places you want to go. You feel useless, and that your life is just wasting away...

Everyone says if you want opportunities, you have to actively seek them out. But that might be easier said than done. For college students without a major like me, it is very hard to look for internships and jobs. If you really don't know what you want to do with your life, summer time can be the worst time of year. And the fact that I have MD, I'm limited to much fewer options than most of my friends. Can't stand too long without getting tired? Forget about a sales job. Can't lift heavy things? You can forget about restaurant jobs or stocking inventory. Hate talking on the phone? No office jobs. For me, there aren't many realistic options in terms of summer time employment. The economy right now isn't too great. Many paying positions will require something that I cannot do or bear. If you have no connections, or not much work experience, you can forget about people hiring you. So opportunities for me this summer? Things are looking pretty bleak.

But since this is only my third day back from college, there is still some hope. I guess I should start by organizing and updating my very shitty resume. And then looking hard for any opportunities that suits me. This might be hard and an extremely frustrating process. But nothing in the world can be gained without sacrifice of some sort. I just hope I can find some opportunity this summer that will keep me from sitting at home all day. It really drives me nuts. I feel useless and bored. Unmotivated. A big loser. And that why I call it Summer Time Blues. 

But in the mean time, I'll be blogging everyday to keep my self sane. With all the tough shit I've been through so far, this summer might be one of the most critical time  for me in terms of getting my life back on track.