My family is a little odd. It used to be my mom, step dad, cousin, and I. 4 of us living a a humble home. Now my cousin is off to college so it’s my mom, step dad, and I. 4 people, 4 different last names. Hardly seems like family huh? I am the only child. My step dad has no children of his own. My mom and my cousin's mom are sisters. My cousin came to live with us because he came here for school. Oh and we're all Chinese.
My step dad has cared for me since I was very young. Heck, I don't even remember since when. Well I came to the United States around the age of 7. Didn't know English and was always getting into trouble. My parents would always have to deal with my crap. I guess that's when my step dad started to dislike me. Maybe I was a mischievous child. As year went on, things got worse. Any little thing could start a fire storm in my family. I guess one time, my step dad just got so pissed off he wanted to spend time away. So he went back to China to work. Why he came back is beyond me. I guess my mom wanted "a family". Wow... how very touching... -_-
Let’s fast forward a bit. 3 or 4 years ago, my cousin came here from China. My aunt thought that my cousin couldn't keep up in China because the schooling was too hard for him. Now instead of caring for 1 mischievous kind, my parents had to put up with 2 rebellious teenagers. While my step dad was still in China, he liked my cousin, always tutored him and helped him with school work. But when he came here, all things just went down hill... eventually, it just fell off a cliff. My cousin would always get into arguments with my parents. He would always play computer games and not do school work like he was supposed to. My parents told him his mom was paying money for him to be here, yet his actions show no regard what so ever. This would continue. More arguments. More little machine gun chatter and occasional bombs. But one day, someone dropped a nuke. This argument resulted in a bag of spilt cheerios and a relationship that would be broken forever.
Ever since then, my step had has stopped talking to my cousin. All communication between them has ceased. EVEN WHEN THEY ARE IN THE SAME ROOM?!?! o_O My step dad became so pissed off, he said he no longer cared what happens to my cousin. Wouldn't even give him a look. Ever since then, my step dad also contemplated leaving us.
Now my cousin is off to college. He comes home on the weekends. My step dad still doesn't talk to him. But I might be going down the same path relationship wise with my step dad. I have to be grateful and thank him for all these year he's cared for me but there are some things I can’t stand. My step dad doesn't talk too much, but he can when he's around people he knows. He loves to complain about random shit too. Like how my cousin and I are lazy, how we're ungrateful, and just asshole kids. We don't respect authority or whatever the parents have to say. How he has to care for us and that my cousin's parents don't do anything. The worse thing is that he always has this sullen face. Always unhappy and mumbling about some shit. He loves to nag and to repeat himself. Like an old deaf lady. He always says some negative stuff to us. Maybe he's just doing the Asian parent thing of educating. Asian parents think that putting down their children will get them to work harder or what not. That’s in China. Not here man. This is the United States, on top of that, I am a 3rd world culture kid. THAT SHIT DOES NOT ROLL WIT ME!!!! I just think he does it to be spiteful or something. I hate it when he does that. His sullen face makes me unhappy. Would you like it if you're family is all cheerful but this one person in the house ruins the mood because he has a sullen face and that miserable attitude? Anyhow, I dropped the F bomb this one time and it made things A LOT WORSE. One time my mom told me to do some ACT practice, but I ignored her til my step dad started to nag. He told me to do it once, I sighed and went to get the books. But that nagging didn’t stop. It became some malicious repetitive speech that PISSED ME OFF. So as mad as I was, I couldn't take that annoying voice of his and I told him "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!"
Yeah, go ahead think whatever you want. An Chinese kid telling his parents to STFU?!?!?! Never!! Not in a million years!! Oh the world must be ending!!!! WELL GUESS WHAT? I DID TELL HIM THAT. My mom was enraged and told me to apologize. She was shrieking with rage. But I was more angry than she was or my dad. I became so enraged I thought I was turning into a monster. I started to snarl and convulse with rage. That was the angriest I've ever been in my life. I was glad I had self control because very angry people can do very stupid things. He very seldom speaks to me now.
Now why does my step dad act all sullen and lifeless every day? Is it because he has no children of his own? Very Possible. Is it cuz he doesn't want to deal with my crap anymore? Maybe. Was it because I told him to STFU? Very likely. Would he be happier if he had children of his own and he could just live with my mom and their children? And without me and my cousin in the picture? In his dreams I suppose. But that's too bad cuz my mom is too old to be havin kids. They tried but it didn't work. So that's too bad. But maybe he'll turn into a happier person when I'm gone. I'm off to college next year so I guess its good riddance
to me. Maybe the war zone will finally come down and become the peace zone or some shit like that. But I can't wait til I go to college, because as long as I stay in the house, I better get a helmet and a bullet proof vest cuz I don't know how long it'll be til the next battle begins.
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